I guess I just need someone to talk me out of my own head. I've been married for a few years to a great guy. He treats me so well, is very kind and loving, has a good job, buys me nice things, and an all around great/stable guy. Everyone loves him. My family loves him, my friends love him, he has a ton of friends. There is NOTHING wrong with him. He's wonderful. When I'm having a bad day at work, he always does something to cheer me up. He goes out of his way to do nice things like get my car washed or pick up a coffee for me when I'm feeling tired. He surprises me with silly little gifts randomly. His coworkers tell me that they hear nothing but wonderful things about me.

Quite honestly, I bring nothing to the table. I'm cute, I do the laundry, and I keep the house clean. That's about it. I have a job that pays me less than 1/3 of what he makes. I honestly cost more than I'm probably bringing in. I don't know why he stays with me.

He's a great guy and I love him, but some days I just feel like I'm not in the right relationship. And it seems ridiculous typing all of this out, but it's how I feel and I can't shake it.

Part of it might be that I feel a little trapped. I've had the same crappy job for two years and I've having a really hard time finding another one (that I want) in the area we live in. Sometimes I see jobs in other states that sound awesome, but obviously I know that I can't move to another state. My husband loves his job and is doing very well there. It would be incredibly difficult for him to find a similar job elsewhere.

Also, since he brings in so much more money (and works much longer hours/travels a lot of the time) I feel obligated to be the house cleaner/laundress/cook/pet caregiver to pull my own weight. He's NEVER suggested that I need to be making up for my low salary, but I just feel like I should, since I don't bring much else in. It's kind of exhausting to come home from a long day at work and feel like you HAVE to vacuum or throw in some laundry. I know this is my own issue but it's really hard to shake this feeling.

Does anyone have any advice? I know deep down that I don't want to leave this marriage but some days it's so hard for me not to just get in my car and drive far away to see what else is out there.