Girls gotta sleep! Antihistamines? You're not on any bi polar meds? Are you bipolar 1 or 2? If u don't mind me asking.. It's terrible having insomnia!! Life traumas really exasperate that.. I took care of my aunt who had cancer who was like a mother to me and didn't sleep for 5 months.... I feel for ya, so sorry to hear! Life tends to come all at once.. I know this was all horrifying for my state of mind... Also had broke up w bf of 8 yrs... It goes on and on... Some great suggestions for u on this thread! Hope something works if ur trying to stay med free ... Also, just curious have you ever been fully manic before?