Im ok, work today, had to clean a penthouse kitchen for 7 1/2 hours that some rich kid destroyed. At least took my mind off things for a while . Physically tired. Got a bit of sleep last night but not much.

Mental Reward, sorry to hear that too. Cancer really sucks the big one. I am bipolar 1, yes I have been full blown manic with psychosis more times than I could ever count. I have usually fallen on the manic side of the coin. I am med free but have not had any episodes since, and its just coming up two years. So I feel comfortable with that. The thing is to keep it that way I have to sleep right. That was always a huge factor for me. I will try antihistamines, I have a lot of allergies so I always have some on hand. Good idea. Thank you!

Thanks for checking in with me all of you!! It's very nice to feel cared about in times like these. I have beenna bit of an isolist latelty. I am gonna go for a run tonight tho, I think that might help. I have got my 5k down pretty good now. love you guys toooooo!!!!