This so well put... So true. You can be expressive and need to be heard, and if you feel you are not, maybe this causes resentment, and makes you feel that it is your fault or you are just too combative, too well bi polar. Not true. I warned Theron I am now seeing that a relationship with me will be more difficult, said what I deserved, said what triggers he may say or actions he my take that may cause me to behave irrationally, or just run, or threaten to. Luckily his dad and grandmother are bi polar. He knows and is so understanding and calming when I react certain ways, or when I'm elevating a bit too rapidly and do something reckless or impulsive. I'm not a bad person. You are not a bad person. What you must or I know I crave I'm these situations is a place to rest my head on there shoulder, gentleness, kindness, warmth, the opposite of what you put out there... It's a defense mechanism. And I polar or not... It's ok... What's more important is that I'f u truly r in love w each other couples therapy may be fantastic. If you have been married for a long time, and couldn't begin the relationship with the role you see yourself as now but he may not or may not understand... It is soooooo hard to change anyone's behavior. But it's ok to be you. If you get emotionally perturbed or upset in general by specific things he must hear u...and know what he can do to help. Which in most cases is nothing but a big hug and kiss on the fore head, and an I'm sorry you feel this or do u want to talk about it or tell me what u really need so I can help u. Even if u don't know! It opening the lines of communication... Love is so worth it...but it can never stop growing and evolving and everyone deserves kindness and happiness...sorry ! So much to say about this!!!! All the best luck... Also what meds are u on?