Echoes,

You're right. It's not about wanting to be rescued. It's wanting someone to care enough about me to want to rescue me. If they do rescue me, then I'm not happy because what I want is for them to keep caring about me and liking me and taking care of me. My mother used to tell me that I would always be her child, and I didn't like that because the way she said it (or the timing) told me that she would never let go and let me be an independent adult. But here I am now that I am supposed to be an independent adult, wanting someone to take care of me for always, and rejecting that at the same time because I want to be independent and I am afraid of being smothered. How confusing!

Yes, this is a continual issue with T, and we are both aware of it constantly. If I did get another T, that would be one of the first things I would bring up. I hope that you will bring it up with your T soon. So much of therapy is in the relationship.