I am not compulsive but I am obsessive in thoughts. My GP discussed it with the pdoc while I was hospitalized last week. My agitation occurs when I feel I cannot help somebody resolve an issue or fix something or if regulations or authority will not permit me to fix something. I then feel like I have no control and feel guilty as well as frustrated. Then, either anxiety hits or I get depressed, feel like a failure and my self esteem drops.

So, now I have to learn to identify when my impulses are simply a kind gesture or a feeling of obligation that I must do something nice for people or it will bother me and I will ruminate.

My sweet GP told me not to expect myself to pic up everybody's spirits all of the time, but, what is wrong with a kindly gesture or a helping hand? When do I draw the line? This is what I have to learn.