Hey there, at least you have identified that the feelings you are having are old thought processes, and that you are aware of your emotions. Don't be angry at people who self-harm... you can try to help them but ultimately they are the ones in control. Don't be mad at yourself either--you have recognized the issue and you're trying to cope, which can be pretty overwhelming. There isn't really much else I can think of to say, other than take care!

- AJ