Hello, I have had very very low self-esteem since I was about 5 years old. I have 0 self-esteem and 0 confidence in myself. I hate everything I am, everything I do, how I look, everything, and I can't make myself change. It is an absolute nightmare. I've been to individual therapists, an intensive out-patient program, a partial hospitalization program, actual hospitalization, support groups, etc, etc. (for depression, but it is all related) and everyone has told me I have to love myself before I can do anything else. Therein lies the problem. I don't think I can love myself. I mean, I hate who I am, I hate my personality, how I act; I feel like I am watching a movie about my life and not actually living my life. So, just wondering, any thoughts on this?