Wow not the response i was looking for, was hoping to hear it being common. I quess OCD comes in many flavors, i just had one nobody has tried, ha ha. I just hope someone will read this and be familiar with this, whether personaly or just from observation. I share the same problems as everyone else who has i quess the usual symptoms. Mild depression, cant focus. Im trapped in my head 24-7 and need to get out. Im starting to get control again, and i usually learn from my mistake's. I have been dealing with panic disorder for many years without the need for help or medication. I dont know if that was a good idea, maybe i could have had better quality of life, but im stubborn and was set on not becoming dependent on meds. I know one thing that it has done is made me srtonger in some respect. There is a saying that you should keep your friends close and your enemy's closer (Godfather). Well the enemy is anxiety and keeping it near has helped. Sounds strange yes but by not forgetting those experiences has helped me cope. Once i felt fine for some time and out of nowhere i had a full blown attack, which was a big blow for me then.I quess i got a little to comfortable (normal i suppose).Now i keep it close to me and i can control my life better. The same can be said for my OCD, maybe i got a little to comfortable. Now i can learn from this and not do it again, while trying to combat my symptoms.