I am starting my assessment on Monday. I had some sort of one at school when I was younger which I don't know the results of, but that was back in the dark ages. Ten years ago a professor described aspergers in class and almost everything he said sounded like me and have wondered if this was the cause of my problems since then. Reminders of this keep coming up. A few months ago I asked my therapist what she thought and before I could finish she was offering to refer me. I wasn't looking for a diagnosis, I just wanted to know if she thought it was a possibility, but she refused to give me an answer either way.

Initially my therapist referred me to a neuropsych but there is no way I could afford to pay what they wanted. Recently she gave me the name of a psychologist who appears to be a local expert, and who also happens to also be a professor at my old university. I set up an appointment with him.

I can't stop worrying about the assessment. What if I say the wrong thing and sway the it in the wrong direction? He said he wants to meet my parents, who I very much don't want to know anything about my mental health issues. I think that no matter what the result is that I will take it badly. To make matters worse my wife thinks I am just wasting money because it won't change anything. I suspect she doesn't want to know and fears the result.

I don't know why I am posting this but my anxiety has been through the roof for weeks thinking about it. Hopefully it will all be over soon.