I'll be seeing a T in January, so I hope that helps. I had someone I could talk to but he's away now, and I don't know when he comes back.
Yes my mother has abused me in different ways, so that is probably why, but she has been nice to me all Christmas, and she isn't home much becuase she works a lot. She has some psychological problems herself.
It's hard for me to turn to anyone for help, sometimes I realy wish there was someone I could trust, but when someone shows me affection or attention I turn away.
For the first time in my life I am fairly safe and I don't have to deal with too many things besides school. I had hoped it would be a time to rest but things that happened in my past and I never had the capacity to deal with just keep hitting me like bricks.