The way you have described your relationship it dose look mean spirited on his part.
I would be heartbroken as you have expressed in eloquent detail.

All my life I've experienced intense, and sometimes painful, love relationships.

The therapist I'm currently seeing means looking deeply into reasons why. The process is bringing up repressed emotions that I'm not comfortable with.
Still, I'm determined to stay in treatment.

I agree with gaylegg about looking into the Grief Forum. I'm going to do the same.