hi there,

long story short; night before last (wednesday)
i drank about 7 pints... - thing is i'm on 20mg diazepam...
also on that wednesday i took 1 mg of xanax during the day {alprazolam}

i was out on my own... and was generally having a 'good' time.
had 3.5 pints of 5% alcohol then went to a bar/music venue..
... saw some music,, drank 4 pints of 4% ale...

then i left... and don't really remember anything else..
i went to another music venue, which i just remember about 10 seconds of.
i don't think i drank anymore; but i remember talking to someone outside of the venue... - i recalled it as a good conversation.. - no idea what about.

then several hours past; and my mum was suddenly there, apparently we'd had several conversations... and she took me home.
^don't remember any of it.

so, today (two nights later).... i'm still recovering.. can't think straight.
to be expected..

but i've suddenly started freaking out; as my arm really hurts.
(i have multiple anxiety disorders; Ocd, Bdd, Gad, Hypodchondriac, Health phobia e.t.c.. {and more..})

and when i checked my arm; there is a weird 'blood prick'.... - a mark that is a very small 'dot' of blood.... there seems to be some very mild bruising around it.
the mark is bang on a vein on the underside of my forearm...

i've never been an intravenous drug user... but - i was in a blackout for several hours... - not the foggiest where or who i was with.. last thing i remember is talking to this guy, who seemed nice,,, and perhaps concerned??

anyhow i'm now FREAKING out that i injected something, or was injected with something... as i can recall everything until i went to that second bar...
and then absolutely nothing from then for about 4-5 hours.
i was in the street the whole time as far as i'm aware... i don't remember going to a house or anything...
i really hope i'm just; 'freaking out' .... - which is not uncommon for me..

but its been a really long time since i've blacked out to this severity...
and i was in a complete state when my mum found me.. - walking, talking...
but very messed up...

and that was several hours after i stopped drinking.... {to my recollection}

ugh,,,,, gotta stop drinking while i'm on valium..
my inhibitions just disappear. It scares the S* out of me when i wake up.

i'm thinking of going to get a drugs-screen test tomorrow.... but ... i doubt even that will alleviate my concern..
(i do have an obssesion over disease and needles... - so this could well be that rearing its ugly head - due to my anxiety + alcohol.....)

but i don't know how to lay this to rest..... - quite scared.

sorry, i know...... massive issues coming from circles again.. - no conclusive answers really possible..
and - what the hell are you doing drinking on valium anyhow..?
man,
please tell me its fine...

Regards.
C5x