I just talked to my T. I'm trying to not let myself get overwhelmed with why and how details right now as she encouraged me to. She said she remembers me being upset over what happened when I saw her just after that weekend. She agreed that it sounded like my experience definitely could've brought it all on. Like you all are saying she said it takes time to figure it all out especially with the meds in the mix. She also said that she can tell how upset I am over it now and that it matches up with what I was saying to her after it all happened-it's valid and it makes sense and not making it all up.

I'm not looking for a diagnosis really-I much rather not have anything else wrong with me But in time if we do figure out some kind of diagnosis, then so be it. But right now I just want closure of some sort from all of this. It was a really bad experience for me. I slowly keep remembering details I have blocked out. I'm going to move forward in the hope that I will move past this and it will get better.