It sounds like you are experiencing a "mixed" episode where you have symptoms of both mania & depression. I was diagnosed bp when I was in a mixed episode. I was very agitated & restless & irritable & depressed. The meds work wonders for me, though I have had a few relapses in the last 5 years. I'm starting to recognize when I am going into a depression or mania now & call my doc. Take care. Hope your appt. on Wed. helps clarify things for you. If it is bp, it will take awhile (a year for me) for them to get the right combo of meds for you. There is hope.--Suzy