Right now, I'm feeling pretty numb. Like a blanket is covering my emotions, a barrier... with my mind on one side, and everything else on the other. Like a... I don't know, like a window. I'm looking at the window, looking at the emotions and feelings beyond the glass, and I can see which ones are closest, which ones are the most obnoxious, but it's just out of reach - separated by a glass barrier, unable to fully affect me, even if I want it to. The most obnoxious emotions, at the moment? Hopelessness. Confusion. Uselessness. Worry. Fear. Definitely... definitely fear. Right now, I guess... I'm incapable of feeling, I suppose.

It's hard to explain, and that's the best way that I've put it in a long while. Like a glass barrier is separating me from my mind and my emotions, whether those emotions are good, or bad. It happens every once in a while, and I'm normally not as disconnected from my emotions as I currently am, but it seems to be happening more and more often, and it sucks. It really does.

Also, this is my first "official" post, outside of my Introduction post. I've never been officially diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, but a friend very much thinks that I may have it, and all of the signs point to it... so this is my first stop, I suppose, on my quest for self-discovery.