Hi Bugeaud, and welcome to PC. There are a lot of understanding people here you can talk to. I can totally relate to your problem. I have been depressed for most of my life (I'm 23 years old now). I've always been extremely shy and a loner. I tried to make friends but everyone just ignores me or disappears completely. I recently thought I made some friends in an IOP that I had attended, but I have been trying for months now to get back in contact with them with no response. It really makes me sad because I really thought we had some good times together, but I guess it was fake.

Anyways, yes I agree that making friends with shy people is not an easy task. Usually if you're quiet you need to find people that can understand you, but are more outgoing and can basically give you a voice. When I was in high school, there was a girl that I really liked and she understood me and she gave me a "voice". She was the only person in my life that I felt I really connected with. I tried to ask her out but I forgot to get an item for her to show that I was a provider, and she declined.

I also haven't a clue what to do with my life. I've never had any psychosis so I don't know what that is like but it must be really hard to deal with. But listen to this: The fact that you had friends at one time means that you CAN do it again! It is possible for you, you just need to get brave and apply yourself. As for me, I've never really had any friends to speak of. I've never had a girlfriend. So you're better off than I am in that regard. Just know you can do it again if you try. I wish you the best.