I was just journaling. I tend to use both hands to hold internal dialogue. I'm never quite sure which part is writing to who at the start. The one I would consider to be the "mature" one (me?) tends to end up being the child and the child becomes the voice of wisdom.

Today this voice of wisdom scared me. I do not believe in "god" nor have any interest in believing in such stuff, but this voice of wisdom reminded me of some "god like" person. I didnt like it and had to stop writing!

Now I feel irritable and confused and angry and scared. Who was this voice? I certainly feel all over the place now. LIke parts trying to run back into their bunkers.

I often "hear" this voice when I read other peoples post and that triggers me. Whenever I hear a authoritive tone I see "red" but to have it talk to me directly! No I am no scizophrenic. Does anyone relate to this?