I too am sorry you are going through so much at the moment - It really does feel as if you have your hands full and you sound like me when you say your emotions get in the way - they can be so powerful - both the good and the bad - but when bad you feel so dictated by them and lose control of those all too important issues - they are literally crippling sometimes. My advice would be to try somehow to drag yourself to the Therapist - it may just help you feel a little stronger afterwards - Good luck