Atomicc
I'm sorry for your loss & I do understand that feeling. I lost my 23 month old niece 4 yrs ago. I still think of her so very often. She was 8 months older than my own DD & sometimes when I look into my own DD eyes I can see my niece. I know there are things I just can't explain & sometimes to me it doesn't matter if I can explain them, but I can interpret them as I wish. I feel that connection. It sounds like you do too.
Peace,
P