Hi, I have been married 30yrs and have known my husband since I was 17yrs. old he is also my everything and I love him with all thats in me and I know he feel the same. It been a wonderful and blessed 30yrs yrs.

I appreciate all that you have said. You know when you and your husband got married you two became one flesh so its nothing wrong with feeling so attach to the one you vow to live your life with for the rest of your life.

I would not suggest for you to take you own life if your husband would leave this place before you. We are stronger than we think and I don't think your husband who apparently loves you with all thats with in him will want that.

Feeling what or how your husband may feel or is feeling each day is only natural you to share life together each and every day. If he is happy its natural that you want to be happy , if he is sad its natural that you are sad, you are one flesh.

Stay strong my dear and enjoy life with your man and allow him to enjoy life with you. If you want a change, how about you do something for him that he always or normally would do for you. All my best to you both

God grant me the serenity To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can; And wisdom to know the difference.