I hadn't realized the symptoms started before meds, I had thought the meds were started while in the hospital. I'm sorry you had to deal with such a scary experience! Unfortunately I've noticed that truama can make med changes harder, and med changes can make truama more difficult to deal with. I'm glad you have a t that is so supportive and encouraging for you. No one should ever have to feel so vulnterable that they become traumatized. Hopefully you can do some self care, which is sooo important. This includes things to keep you grounded (soothing/comforting senses that help - flavours, textures, scents, etc), and doing things that are calming to your body, breathing/meditating, baths/showers, special foods, distracting and calming activities. Really whatever works for you. A good way to think about this, if you have trouble 'treating' yourself is that in development a care giver is meant to soothe a child/infant when they become upset. They would physically do all those things for the child. As a child grows it is an important part of development that they learn to do this for themselves. And the more stressful a situation, the more obvious and often these soothing techniques need to be.
Hope you are feeling better soon (if not already!)
IJ