I was hopping that at the beginning of this year I would be feeling better. Unfortunately, that isn't the case at all. I thought that taking a break from everything would help, but all I know was that it wasn't enough. Trying to push myself back into being a functioning person isn't working. Strangely, it seems that the more time I take away, the more time I need to take.

I hopped that trying to keep my mind away from everything that happened 2 years ago that the flashbacks & nightmares would stop haunting me. Trying to find things I enjoy doing that keep my mind busy should work but for some reason, those visions are strong enough to push their way in no matter what.

I wanted to pop in here & wish that everyone had a nice Christmas/Holiday/New Years. I guess for me, this time of year on top of everything that happened 2 years ago at this time ends up being more than I can actually handle. I know that everyone says that as time passes & as there becomes a distance from what happened, flashbacks & nightmares will lessen.

I hope that the New year will be a good one for all.