I'm nervous about being in T next week because of flashbacks from a trauma I'm remembering from about a month ago. Apparently I've been dissociating from it this whole time...and I still am.

I want to deal with it so I can move past it but I am so scared. I can picture myself going into T and skyrocketing into a panic attack from whatever I'm remembering or feeling. This almost happened yesterday when I realized I blocked out the trauma...I talked to t on the phone and it was very helpful and comforting. I'm still scared though. I keep remembering things. I know I'm going to end up feeling more than I already have from all this. I can't stop thinking about t and remembering again. The fear of facing it is getting to me.