Hi Amanda, so sorry to hear you are struggling so much right now. I know the anxiety of starting a new job, and have experienced the same fears as you, but I have found that once I really get into the job, and start learning how to do things, and getting familiar with the environment and people I generally start to relax a bit. I hope that this happens with you. Baby steps... it's okay to feel what you feel, it's normal to feel what you feel, but remind yourself of what things you have done and accomplished in the past, hurdles you have overcome. Think about these things when you're feeling like you can't do something or that you feel you're a failure.