I hope that this weight lifts off of you soon... Depression can be so tricky, even when things are going right and you feel like you should be happy, it just comes and zaps it all up. Try writing a list of all the things that are good and exciting that are going on in your life. That way you could read through each one and think about it.. might bring a bit of bright spot for you. Also, keep the list for future bouts of depression.. and keep adding to it!