I suffer from obsessive thoughts, as well. Unlike your's though, most of mine are based on reality, real life events currently going on in MY life. I know how hard it can be, they can eat away at you and destroy you inside. When mine get really bad, I just try to reassure myself that things are going to be okay. Sometimes they cause me to maybe go over the top and freak out a little too much, afterwards I force myself to step back, take a deep breath, and tell myself to relax. We all make mistakes and do the wrong thing sometimes, these obsessive thoughts and feelings quite often the culprit.
Not everyone will understand, but some will I know, the ones who TRULY care, and it's those people you need to turn to. You have my support, and I wish you well in your journey towards healthy, positive thinking.

Good luck.

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