Pinkbutterfly,

I agree with hamster bamster. You are judging yourself for something that shouldn't be judged. If you feel something, attraction, love, lust, etc. for a woman it's not wrong. It just is. Stop allowing religion to make you feel shame for who you are. I say this with <3, and as someone who's religious upbringing caused decades of shame and guilt. Be who you are, love you you want to love, but you need to find a therapist you are comfortable discussing these issues with. Your current therapist may surprise you, but if not find a new T and learn to be at peace with yourself!