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I think you need to find a simple hobby, painting small things you can find things that are cheap at a hobby store or ceramic shop small trinkets that they fire you can paint to relieve some boredom.. Second hand stores have things you can repaint as well..I picked up a book after reading your post today, here is a the saying for the day.

I am now willing to forgive myself...for not taking time to deal with certain unpleasant memories.. Today I am devoted to healing unresolved and unexpressed anger!!
And you know me sweetie I read horror books alot, So this was a gift from someone who knew me all to well it has a daily devotion for everyday of the year. and when the hurting of my children became evident he gave me this book.. Anyhow try a hobby hun, something that helps your mind relax a little we cannot read and take in imput all the time and not find ourselves right back where we started thinking about things that have happened. Love troubled1