I can fully relate. My best friend of 20 years from one day to another pulls the plug on our friendship via SMS saying that we have drifted apart and that I am not as available to her when she really needs me etc. I know she is high strung and very judgemental lost her mum 2 years ago her maternal grandma 6 months ago same happened to me I lost my mum 13 years ago and my grandma one month before hers passing. I was there through thick and thin for her, pushing myself to the edge of exhaustion trying to cope with my own grief of losing my grandma also that year my relationship with my two youngest girls dad fell apart due to abuse towards my eldest different fathers....
I also don't hate her and I know that if tomorrow she needed me I still would be there. I know she feels alone she is not married nor any kids 38, and yes depression etc i know those feelings and I also know how to be my worst enemy is by pushing people who are the closest to me to the edge, well she did just that this time pushed me too close to the edge and I fell.....from that day I have only heard from her twice both asking for things where she knows I can only get them ...... So she does not want to do the hard yards but still wants stuff from me what am I a dealer/ butler / superwoman she hurt me where it hurt the most...,,and all via SMS not even via phone nor face to face ....I know and I am sorry this thread was about you and not me....,, just wanted to let you know that you are not alone