I was/am very attracted to my T, so much so I had say "I don't want to fall in love with you." T was after all giving me undivided, nonjudgmental, accepting attention and really good at listening and being empathetic. We talked about my feelings. Now they are sometimes more and sometimes less. But even so, there seems to be electricity in the room most times we meet, even if this is not discernable by T. And T has never disclosed any countertransference or feelings toward me.

I think it's "normal feelings" (that is, then and there) feelings I'm having most the time. But some of it could be transference. Although some people think it's important to try to figure out which of the two it is, I've given up on that... lol.. It's probably a mixture.

On the other hand, if we talk about certain things that she has said that have bothered me, upon closer inspection, what I'm bothered about sometimes can reveal that I'm bothered about the same issue with a person in "real life," so whatever is going on (between T and me) it can refer to other people in my life, and I find that aspect of T to be amazing and helpful.