Thank you all for the responses. I had a rough night last night and it def carried over into this morning. Reading these has helped me some. It's nice to know you aren't alone sometimes.

I will def return and talk about how it went. This has been long overdue. I hope to get a few answers and some direction tomorrow.

As for my friend I understand what you are saying ToeJam. She has been struggling with her own issues the last couple years and I have always tried to be there for her. I have loved her for a long time but only been in love with her for maybe a year. I can't expect the same because it would require that I tell her how I feel but she is in a relationship and I respect that and do not want to damage our friendship.