I was diagnosed at a rather young age with ADHD and being bipolar. Being so young and rebellious of course I told my parents to stop medicating me.

. I was under the impression that I was a normal human being if I'm gonna be wild then that's the way it should be I shouldnt have to take pills to fufill this normal image my parents and doctors Imagine, felt like I was being controlled. Shortly after going off meds I got into drugs you name it I did always chasing a high it. Been 8 years now I believe...Self medicated myself as I would see it became a dealer whole 9 yards to sustain a high. Never really became dependant on anything tho like severe addiction kinda thing. Life was pretty good mood swings were still there of course but when your ****ed up your thoughts are pretty positive and you can imagine anything.

I moved out of my parents bout a year ago and boy oh boy when you got bills to pay its hard to get high. Aggression, severe insomnia, racing thoughts got a million times worse I used to be able to tell myself I could control it. Now now that I really don't use the mood swings are unbareable really hard to contain myself and getting more then 3 hrs of sleep a day would be a miracle if I sleep at all. As things are getting worse I push everyone away no matter how close they are to me.

What helps the mind from going straight into negative thoughts or getting angry in .3 seconds over practically nothing?
Getting sleep get any easier?