yeah i can't ever love myself i am a socially inept human being.

* AS YOUNG CHILD UP UNTIL 8 I FELT A SENSE OF SECURITY
* THEN MOVE AROUND ALL THE TIME AND ALWAYS THE NEW GIRL ( DUE TO MY DAD WHO WAS IN FORCES WHICH IS NOT HIS FAULT AS HE IS MY ROCK)
* BULLIED AS IM SOME WIERDO
* CHILDLINE IS MY BEST FRIEND AT 10/11 WHICH I TOLD A PSCHOLOGIST
* EATING DISORDERS BECAME MY BEST FRIEND AFTER RAPED AT 14 AND
* YEAH I HAD FRIENDS BUT EASILY LOST EM YEARS LATER DUE TO MY BEHAVIOURS ESP STARTING ILLICIT RECREATIONAL DRUGS TO GET HIGH
* wENT TO UNI AT 19 AFTER A YEAR OUT AND COULDN'T COPE AFTER MY CASUAL BOYFRIEND RAPED ME IN A CAR PARK WHICH THE BRUISES AND GRAZES SHOWED AND NEVER TOLD ANYONE AND IT GOES ON AND ON AND ON

IM 31 NOW TWO CHILDREN AND WHO DONT LIVE WITH ME FOLLOWING A BREAKDOWN WHEN MY SON WAS 8 WEEKS OLD, LED TO 13 MONTHS IN HOSPITALIZATION

I WORKED AS A QUALIFED NURSE AFTER EVENTUALLY COMPLETING MY 3 YEAR COURSE

I AM A FREAK WIS I WAS A SOCIAL PERSON, BUT I AINT.

CANT GET BACK THE LIFE I HAD.X

THIS IS ONLY A SUPERFICIAL LAYER OF THINGS

SORRY

MY ADVICE IS GET HELP BEFORE YA END UP LIKE ME LOSING YA LIFE WITH A PERSONALITY DISORDER