Hi Jan,

So sorry to hear you are struggling so much right now. I can most definitely relate to the lack of motivation and feeling like you are "on freeze". I used to go through long periods where I would barely be able to get myself out of bed. Had no interest in doing anything. Had no motivation. For me, I have found that making commitments, even if I don't want to, helps keep me motivated to keep getting out of bed and keeping my appts, being social, etc. For example.. I love to help people, so I joined this forum and also participate in groups on FB and have "recovery buddies" that I talk with on a regular basis. I feel this helps because if I feel like I can't get up, then I remember I need to be there for others, as well as for myself.

When it comes to things like filling out paperwork or having to do things, remind yourself that it is OK to take baby steps. Maybe just try filling out one page a day? Just commit to ONE page. It's much easier than committing to twenty!

I think it's great that you have your puppy, animals are great for therapy and depression and loneliness. But from what you are saying, it seems like you are in need of some other resources to help you. Whether it's making new friends, seeing a therapist or counselor, etc. Again, baby steps. Commit to going in for an eval just for now, commit to making ONE recovery buddy, etc, until you feel you can handle more.

I hope that that was somewhat helpful, and if you would like to talk more please do not hesitate to contact me. I wish you the best of luck in finding some things to help motivate you. Just remember, the depression is what's telling you that you can't. Don't listen to it. You are YOU, not your depression.



--Angel