I feel like this a lot, you are not alone. I think it's important when you're feeling this way to just try and find joy in the little things. Such a seeing a pretty flower, watching a sunset, petting an animal, listening to a song you like, etc. Also, you could try to make of list of some of the things you like about yourself (sometimes you really have to think on this one, but hopefully you can come up with some stuff!) Also, some things you have accomplished in life. Such as going to college. That's huge, especially when you're dealing with something like depression! Another list you could try to make is list of goals for the future. You might not be sure of exactly what you want, but just put down whatever pops into your head. Start with little goals and work your way up. There is hope for you and for your future and I hope that you will see it soon. Please do not give up. You are worth so much. I hope some of this was helpful to you. Also, if you wish you talk more please feel free to contact me, I DO understand.