Hi, Baylee57 and welcome back to PC. Don't feel bad about posting. You will always find people in worse condition than you and some in better shape. The main thing is that you are hurting and need support. I don't know that I have any answers, but wanted to let you know that you have been heard and I'm sorry you are having such a tough time. You might want to seek out a counselor now that you are not in group therapy anymore. Wish you the best.