Hello I hope things are better for you at this time. Sometimes it is hard to understand other actions, but it is far better to understand ourselves, and focus on what we can do to be the peole we want to be, and not let the past become a stumbling block in our lives. I hope you feel welcome to post here anytime, it is always good to hear from you and that is what we are here for, the good and the bad days. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia