Hello I hope things get better for you soon. I hope you stay open minded that not all doctors are bad. You need someone that is in charge of your mental health treatment that is competent, and you need to possiblky work on your PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) that you have had since this ordeal. I am very sorry that you have had to deal with someone elses problems, and concerns in this manner, but you need to do the best thing and get the help you deserve for your mental health treatment, for you to stay healthy. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia