Hi, Sam. I would give anything for "The Jazz State" to hit me. Without meds I get suicidal and with meds right now isn't much better. i keep waiting one of those wonderful highs.
Sorry you are having trouble, that's the problem with mania. Are you taking your meds now? I hope so. You may not be as "happy" but it does keep us out of trouble.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
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