Hi, Phoobear. This may not be the time to go med free. Sounds like your doctor may need to adjust your meds instead taking you off of them. I know that feeling of sinking lower. I have been to the bottom and am still struggling for anything better than where I'm at right now. I, however, have faith in medication because I doubt I would be here if i didn't. Please see you doctor before you get any lower.
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