Thank you so much, guys.

Starbright777, what you said, means a heck-of-a lot to me. Would've been great to meet you in person, to have heard you say all that. It's really nice to know I'm not alone with this. Your therapist makes a good point. Big hug for you, my fellow morbid poster. Hah.

allme, I'm really sorry if anything I said triggered you in any way or form. I appreciate your posting.

One of the problems I experience, is the feeling that I have no purpose. I sometimes talk to my brah about this, and he says that doesn't need to feel a purpose to just get on with it; for him just being is enough. I envy people so much, that can go through like that blasé. I need a purpose! I know this sounds stupid, but the only times I've felt a sense of purpose, are when I'm in a relationship, in-love, and being by someone's side; that gives me a sense of purpose. I feel like I have a lot to offer, and I don't mean crap like money, I mean love, care, support, and more, ... guess I'm still waiting for a woman I can claim purpose. Hah. How fudging cheesy is that? Knowing me, though, even if I did find such a woman, I'd probably still feel crappy about death; it isn't just about companionship, after-all, but I'd certainly at least not feel like I was facing it alone.