It may be weird, but it's not your fault. Slow down, let your thoughts calm down. Your thoughts right now are not telling the truth. The truth is you need to see your doctor and follow his instructions. And get a new T to help you through this bad time.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha