Thanks guys, I welcome all view points. I am so thankful for all of your stories an opinions. I love the indepth posts so please dont apologise for length.

Thanks Anika, I feel that I have started on a similar journey down the mindfulness and yoga path. I am still in the early days, I need more practice, but I do practice every day. Some days more than others but I still try to live in the moment throughout the day. I felt this has made a huge impact on my life. I feel more "with it".

I also had many unhealthy negative thought patterns, I work on cbt and releasing the need to criticize myself or others. I am realising more and more how my negativity and learned thought patterns have influenced my life in a negative way, now I am actively trying to change that. I had known that being negative was harmful but I never thought changing my outlook would make such a huge difference. I was never thought I was that negative but its only been through a self help therapy book that I have discovered how much my thoughts shape my experiences.