I was tested today for an ED and BDD (body dysmorphic disorder) during my therapy session. The BDD testing really caught me off guard because I had not read much about it ahead of time or even considered that it might apply to me. Evidently something I said to my T must have indicated to her that I needed tested for that. It was weird because that test was given orally which made it hard as I heard myself say my answer choices out loud. I kept thinking, wow is that how I really feel about my body?

Now I wait until next week to find out results. I wasn't even prepared for an ED diagnosis and now I am really scared of the possibility of having two diagnoses. My T said this will help to determine how we move forward with therapy. It makes sense but all the same I am still nervous and scared about it. I can already feel the stress causing my stomach to tighten which will only make it harder to eat.