Well, let's just say I made a huge mistake. I realize that and I am extremely upset about it. To the point where I haven't eaten in a couple of days and all I want to do is sleep.

Well let's get down to it...I slept with my best friend's girlfriend...

It happened a couple a months ago for the first time after a long night of drinking and she came back and stayed at our other friend's house. We slept on the same piece of furniture as there weren't many places to sleep, but I didn't go into wanting to hook up. But it happened.

Immediately the next day, I made it a point to never tell anyone and that I was sorry and we both agreed to act like it never happened.

Some of the other friends swirled some rumors about it but we just denied it.

Over the next couple months when we got drunk we would hook up. All while she was still dating my best friend. (alcohol is another problem of mine, but not to blame as I know it is not an excuse).

We started to hear some more rumors so we stopped ( even though it should have never happened EVER).

Recently as this past weekend, a mutual friend called another mutual friend of mine, who was with me at the time. He wanted to tell him that he heard a rumor about me and the girl and he heard it from a reliable source, the girl's best friend.

I hit rock bottom. I tried to put this terrible memory out of my head for months and here it was again. But there was no one to blame but myself. I am the selfish one, and this was a consequence of my actions.

My friend that I slept with his girlfriend has heard these rumors too, but the girlfriend has shot them down everytime. But this time it will be hard to deny.

So I am debating on coming clean. I can't live with this guilt anymore. I know I will lose some friends from this. Most of which I have known for over ten years or more but I need to turn the page and start fresh. I know it is extremely selfish what I did. But that is why I am here, to become a better human being after all of this. I know he is going to be hurt as he loves this girl alot so I am scared as what he is going to do to me, but I think it is best to tell the truth and stop living in this life of lies and me being a terrible friend.

I will probably lose friends because my other friends will think I'm not trustworthy if I could do this to a friend. That's why I am so scared to tell him because my friends are like my family. I basically screwed over a family member. I don't want to tell him, I wish we would all just act like it never happened and the rumors weren't true, but that's not reality. I think it is best to tell him the truth before he finds out some other way.

So my questions to you all is: How should I tell him? Any other advice or comments?

I know I sound like a terrible person, and trust me I feel like one. Just trying to start fresh and live life not as a phony anymore. Any help would greatly be appreciated.