I am on meds consistently for over a year now and perhaps they have taken away any "magic" I may have felt while manic or hypomanic. The question I would state at hand here is; is the magic worth the potential destruction you may be causing to yourself and those around you. I.E. are you spending too much, are you sexually not responsible, are you talking too much, are your thoughts racing, are you irritable; I'm sure you know all these can be destructive to your life in the long run. I am still trying to find a medicated balance to my meds to be both stable and emotionally content. I'm still searching for a happy normal state where I feel without being over emotional to everything around me. I think one of the keys is finding a Pdoc you can trust and being patient to iron out a medicine cocktail that works for you. I have struggled being patient with finding that cocktail, but my Pdoc says he is a "bulldog" and doesn't give up so I just need to hang in there for the long haul and find that perfect potion. Good luck in finding a Pdoc that can help you.