Is there someone you can talk to, like a school counselor? I don't guess your parents would consider to take you see a counselor?
It is not fair that you have had to go through all this pain alone. Just don't give up on yourself.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
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