So, finally had my first visit with the pdoc today. Overall, I'm really unsatisfied. She seemed more concerned that I talk slow than with what I actually had to say.

I told her over and over that is why I write everything down, because I'm a poor speaker. I wanted to read it off my notes to answer her questions but she wouldn't let me.

She didn't give me a definitive diagnosis but says that my symptoms seem more like narcissistic personality disorder with intermittent explosive disorder.

Well, WTF?!
I am a slow speaker and it takes me a longer time to answer questions. Not to mention that my memory is horrible, so when she asks about my mental state at the time, or if I was sleeping well...the answer is "I HAVE NO F*CKING CLUE!!!!!!"

I'm not satisfied at all. She thinks it's sleep apnea (I have to get tested for that now) and that Celexa is dragging me down, making everything worse.

So, the following actions are being taken:

1. Get a sleep study to check for apnea.
2. Switch from Celexa to Effexor.
3. Switch from Depakote to Depakote ER and reduce the dosage by 250mg to 750mg.

She also gave me a couple looks during the session that pissed me off.
Like she was saying "That's rediculous" or "I don't believe you."

Dammit, now I'm pissed.