I want to jump in the car and just drive and drive. Don't wan to be alone but want to be alone. Trying to keep my mind busy but its not working. I don't want to do something stupid but all the bad things is repeating itself i want to forget. Im so alone and i want to be close to someone that you know will always be there no matter what and will not judge you nor tell you to just snap out of it. Will i ever feel that i really mean something to a friend?